fucking sian. idk why. morning met heidy at her house to bleach our hair :D mine's like super not obvious :( hers is damn obvious but she dont like ! :( i want change loh ^^ after tht went tooooo tpy to meet up with lydia :D went to blk 9 to ball with her & the rest :D hahahas ^^

thnnn went to linus hse to meet baby and him :D went to bishan to eat, clement joined us ! ^^ and then back to tpy. went to 30+ to ball with bren again :D:D hahahas more fun bahs, at least there the guys dont rang ^^ enjoyed myself pretty much, but my toes bled :( siannnns.

went to baby's ! supposed to go home ( sorry mummy ) but my mood.. haih so went to lan with baby and clement. fucking sian. idk why im so affected. just damn sian . at braddell we pick up half a pack of next reds. suddenly mood change, beccome happy le ! and thennn.. checked and realise inside is chiong texas 5 = =" wtfck ! rahhhhs :(:(

whyyyyy is ittttt nobody seeeeees what im aiming forrr. just like everyone, i just want everyone to be happpyyyy ~ i guess what im doing just isnt enoughhh. somethings i sayyyyy.. idkkk.. its just askinggg? not asking for quarrels or anythinggg? ke neng shi wo cuo le bahhhs. i dunno what to do about everything anymore. just feel like rotting and home and slp everyday & night = no troubles. yay ?!

HAPPY 14th MONTHSARY BABY x3 as usual, we cooked tgt^^ andd this time, qinlei and heidy came to eat too :D:D wahlaooo. cook so much, cnt finish = =" everything was OKAY la =/ hahahahs. my soup was the worse, i will do better nxt time ! :D

look at his face !! LOLSLOSL !!

yest baby came to find me cause i was sick :( and thn we slpt awhile ( i slpt like 20 hours yest?! ) & then we left for his house ! bren came, and we drank again :D martell plus sheridan's ( seriously, this is fucking nice !! must try :D:D ) thn stead came, and thn clement too :D after tht, played lg ^^ imm high ^^ whooooosh ~~

i just wanna take this chance, to thank everyone who were there for me when i made that (wrong) decision. sorry for all the troubles ive brought to you all. and thanks for an wei-ing me when i cry. sincerely appreciated ! x3

baby i love you forever :D reallyreally hope that you will change. though 20th is the "Date" we chose to patch, babyyyy i believe, we are alr tgt in our hearts, right? happy anniversary ^^hopefully one dayyy, you will be well loved by everyone bahs x3 you promise to change, i will be by your side, guiding you okay? && of course, at the same time i will change too. x3

been drinking ALMOST every night. last night was at skygarden with the usuals + a few new people ( who are actually quite nice yay ! ) dunno what cognac + martell dunno what. tastes horrible actually =x but i love the high ! drinkdrinkdrink, high le stop drinking, and then start drinking again when the high goes away :D wahhh zui sian is got police come screen, we threw everything into the bushes T.T &after tht when we tried to get them back, we realised that theres thorns evrywhere >:(

indian poker is damn funny, always :D ^^ tmr im going to find out tht im going to tp = =" LOLS !! lucks to everyone ^^

tags reply :
to pam : hahahas i prove you wrong :D
to dardardy : lols yupssss ! we become jiu gui le :( sian :(
to stead : aiyoooo wang ji la, sorry !!
to zoe : nope i didnt =x
to qinlei : thanks lots didi :D

to all the nameless : ehhhhs unless if you are damn shuai, dont comment on people las. plus im not pretty also o.0 whats with the comparison man. you guys dont even know him, whats with all these insults?

yesterday was fucked up, but i like. Tonning at east coast park. Some got fined fucking 300 bucks for littering when we merely stuck our cigs on the sand. heart to heart talks. High in the sea. And after tht we were all shivering like one kind. We practically just took off our shirts in the open toilet to washup while bangalas' eyes feasted. Hahas!

Met up with qianye and weijun in the morning. We spent like h!! And thn i went to meet esther and heody. And then its braddell to look for lydia :d

Baby and i have talked things out. Im gng to shanghai from the 15th tto the 20th. Our love should be strong enough.. my status now : single and unavailable. I dont wanna talk about it. Gonna get myself drunk and high tmr night with all the lovedrunks :d

previous post deleted. it was posted when i was realllyreallyreally pissed. rah anywayyyyyy i love my baby for life x3 theres so much things many doesnt know about him, really. hes the best..

at azure now. 3 nights away from home. been drinkin rather much. yest was the best, but i missed the funnest part ! T.T baby,clement, brendon, heidy +me !YAY :D:D happy ttm ^^ hahahahas. martell + absolut idk what ^^ wahlao but heidy really cui =/ haih.. cheer up okay, dnt think about unhappy things, cause drink when happy then really will shuang x3 ^^

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG some things keep playing over and over in my mind. damnfunny hor, heidy ^^ HAHAHAS. wah this suck, really. my memory is damn bad = i forgot what happened recently = my blog gonna be BORING T.T :( haih. i dont have much readers anyway =x

wannna gooo drinnnkk witthhh myyy lovessss x33 LLLD, i feel that we are so distant sometimes, why :( miss the times we used to have. missed everything. really want us to be backkkkk to normal. can you feel it? =/

cant wait for sch to start with e and h ! reallyreally hope that i can clique with the 2 girls x3

qinlei just left. baby's slpg like a pig T.T joke is, i put ice into his mouth, and he actually chewed it WHILE SLPG = =" yest baby, clement & me tonned at crossfire ^^ vip room $2.50 per hour T.T wahllaoo damn tard. audition dota audition dota audition dota. BABY QUICK TEACH ME HOW TO USE TINY !! fuckg cute hero ^^ hahahahas. playd 4 hours, and then went to eat at simpang ^^ thnn went back to lan again .. 1$ per hour :D ^^ happyyyy ~~

met up with linus & cabbed back tpy? thn after tht slpt awhile at baby's while he went to meet his brothers. and then LAN AGAIN at azure with baby, clement, l, jj & kh. audi dota audi dota. both clement & i improved le, yay !! :D:D off com and zhao, & then we realised we forgot to take our ics = =" so alighted and walked backkk..zzz. cabbed to tpy, baby and i ate meiyan until fuckg full o.0 & thnnnn went to baby's again ^^

qinlei& l came. all of us + brian & burn wants to go lan. but psychoing failed BADLY = =" zzz. too bad bahs, must wait until you all probation end le = =" by thn we will have money to play as much lan as we want :D:D ^^

wahlaooooo idk whether to train cc4 or dota o.0 howhow !! T.T

the fact is lollipops turn into cigarettes, the innocent ones turn into sluts.

undies turn into thongs, and homework turns into recyclables in the trash.

cell phones turn into electronics hidden in class.

detention becomes suspension.

soda becomes vodka, bikes become cars, kisses turns into sex.

remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?

when protection means wearing a helmet?

remember when your mom was your best friend?

your biggest enemies were your siblings.

race issues were about who ran the fastest and the only drug you knew was cough medicine.

when wearing a skirt didnt make you a slut.

the most pain you ever felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes meant till tomorrow.

we couldnt wait to grow up, but i would give anything to go back.

yest me baby &clement ate seoul garden for dinner ^^ it wasss VERY filling & full of laughters as usual. somethings you guys do are damn irritating !! :(:( like once, baby went to disiao a bangala in the train, and even asked for his number? i was paiseh to the max, and baby still keep doing it !! wtfckkkk !! :( bthttm ~~

desperately saving money!! wanna go pub before school starts !!! used to love absolut so much, but now its martell babyyyy ~ ^^

my daddy just brought back apple crumble & beef lasagna which his client gave him x3 yums. sudennly have this urge to start baking again. ^^ pineapple tarts for cny ? :D

wants to attend night classes for psychology!! ask mummylove but she said no cause the diploma cost like 20000$ :( http://www.psb-academy.edu.sg/academic-programme/detail/93/532/Graduate-Diploma-in-Psychology/ really regret not studying hard enough. psychology is my dream course, and im giving it up for accounting ?! haih.. if i have stayed in school, i can -2 cca points = i can get into tp psychology T.T plus if ive gone to school, i would have fared so much better la T.T rahhhh.

i wannnnnnnt to be ..... perfect zzz. i want to be the girl who makes a difference in people's life. the girl whoooo people appreciate having arnd. can i?

times like this, bai chi but loved. cherished very much. how long will this last?

everyone's changing. everyone's drifting. everyone's loved ( by me, for life ! )

bro kisiao =x hahahahs !!

belly danceeeeeee ~

beat it ~ beat it ~

baby said cnt upload on facebook. I DIDNT ^^

wahlao eh, crampscrampscramps T.T novena lan was closed yest >:( so we walked all the way to balestier ^^ the com there is good, but connection sucks la T.T but yest was enjoyable cause the 4 of us played tgt :D:D like audi first, & then dota ! thanks baby & bren, pei me & clement play AI ^^ hahas, they both say i improve le. YAY !! but stil, long way to go.. =/ now i know how to use... LR, sniper, and luna = =" HAhAHAHAS !!

i hate being woken up when i haven slpt enough. haihs. damn grumpy, wanna kill someone. i cant get back to slp, cause my stomach's hurting like siaooooxzxz, butttt im damn tired. fucked up T.T

wonder when i will know where im gng to be posted. hopefully, i can get into my first choice ~ then i will be tgt with dardardy !! ^^ hehes, pray hard for my baby too ..

if you dont care about yourself, who would care for you?

at azure now :D with baby heidy & clement :D:D hahahahahas ~ drank just now wid baby dardardy, kk bro & baby :D:D happy me ^^ hahahahas. think dardardy like super gian drinking. hahas! clement & qinlei was thr too, but didnt drink :( after tht stead came for awhile :D:D ^^ hahas.

wahlaoooo everyone's talking about courses now o.0 im damn clueless, but justtt.. tp accounting bahs <3 with dardardy. yay !! :D

At lor8 market now with heidy baby l and idk-his-name. Hahas. Sian arh. Today is z boring day. Zzz. Wants to slp. Yest i went to jog to pasir ris to meet chewy. Initial plan was to jog home after tht but i called mummy to fetch me cause my leg was bleeding!! Zzz, ankle socks la. Dots. Yay soooooo im slowly gng back to my healthy lifestyle :p

class chalet was a blast ! ( shockg to hear this from me right? ) hahas. its like the first time i actually try to socialise with everybody?! like i talked more in the 2 days compared to one year in school T.T hahahahahs !! too bad i dont thnk we will meet anymore :( buttt best wishes to all for Os ! x3

to think of it. i nv socialise much in school causeeee i always thought that sch ppl are either NERDS/BITCHES/LAME KIDS/step-power kias =x ooops. plus i hate gng to school = finds ppl who actually cares to ask me to come to school irritating? o.0 i hope im past this phrase, and do well in school this year, whichever it might be. promised mummylove NOT to skip school anymore, & i will keep to it :D theres so much ive done which have been so disappointing, really hope that the whole of last year had changed me. one year away from school ( clement still own me la, how many years liao =x ), ive played enough, done enough, enjoyed enough, this year i will be STUDIOUS & beeee a guai student :D:D ^^

we had a bad night. & a bad morning. quarrels after quarrels, fights after fights.. (empty) promises were made, no changes were made. why like that!

have to thank brian bro x999 for helpg out, i wouldnt have known what to do if you werent there..

sakae bufffet with my baby x3

clement came too & he ate abit though he did not pay. hahas ! &we hid a red plate in my bag T.T lols typical o.0 HAHAHAHAHAS. wahlao ehs. before sakae all "quit smoking arhs, dont buy le dont buy le" after eating "ehs wan kup cig?" "okayokay" LOLSLOLSLOLS !! buaytahan ttm T.T

ni shuo ni de xin hen tong, wei shen me wo de bu hui tong

wo xin bu hui tong shi yin wei wo zao jiu ma mu le..

ni wen wo wei shen me bu hui ku

wo mei you ku shi yin wei wo zao jiu mei you yan lei..

bu yao chao jia le hao ma

wo ai ni x3

quote ql "money is really damn important la"

if i had money, i would be skinny like i always wanted to be ( lipo, pills whatever all needs $$$ )
if i had money, i could be beautiful
if i had money, i would be wearing different clothes everyday
if i had money, i would be eating good food everyday
if i had money, i can pay $$$ to get degrees instead of studying
if i had money, i can fulfill my dream ( open a cafe which sells HEALTHY food )
if i had money, i wouldnt have to take buses & mrt all the time
if i had money, i can treat everyone to lan everyday = ="
if i had money, i can ba a better daughter/friend/girlfriend
if i had money, i would be happier...

i spent 1 hour of my life looking at thinspos in xanga, and hoping that i can be with of them..
which girl dont wanna be skinny & beautiful?

year twenty ten, i will
1. repay my debts
2. turn vegan
3. gradually return to my run-everyday-regime + gym once a week
4. become an audition PRO = ="
5. reach my goalweight of 49
6. quit smoking !! & spend the money on toto & 4D >:D
7. spend more time with the family
8. Be more lovable, learn to control my temper & learn to be MORE SOCIABLE !!

year twenty ten, all i wanna be is SKINNY T.T pretty pls? ^^

bth le T.T my cc4 sucks >:( anywayss absolut cranberry plus coke totally sucks T.T smells like cough syrup ? T.T o.0 countdown was spent at baby's . & thn we went to lan again o.0 bren, clement, ql, baby & me :D HAHAS ! chiong audi until i sian o.0 haih. have a feeling i will quit audi soon =x

finally met up with qian sis a few days back. wanna meet up again!! :D:D sian arhs. im damn hungry. crazving forrrr... twister fries T.T &&&& i seriously need to bathe T.T rahh. results cmoing. RESULTS COMING T.T RAH >:( this sucks. i wanna go for plastic surgery T.T okay shhhhhhh. =/