不喜歡懷疑什麼　并不表示我沒有感受      看你微妙的變化　慢慢不同      我不是生氣　只是心痛       最討厭被誤會了　但越解釋越覺得難過      你可以說人會變　但不能說      你會這麼做　是我的錯       哭過就好了　傷都會好的      這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨      愛是為了擁抱　為了牽手      不是為了爭吵　為了調頭       哭過就好了　痛都會走的      記憶有限所以它會淘汰壞的      失眠聽歌想念雖然苦澀      還是謝謝你讓我長大了       越多美好堆疊的過往      想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷      要找勇氣　卻不在口袋或手上      但它一定在我身上　某個地方

overdued pictures again !

Bernhard's birthday !! <3>

My Favourites <3>

rushed & all bathed & went to tpy central to meet up with baby's brothers ^^ thn tgt went to balestier lan shop. they played cs & l4d2 while i played audi ^^ happy arhs. flying duck one hand can 0 miss le yay ! finally ^^ yays. techno party perfect onli 600+ = =" my ouxiang junjie's one is like standard 1000 perfect T.T haih jealous to the max !! i think im becoming a lan addict T.T

anywayyy. came back to tpy & ate popeyes ! ^^ today open de yumyums. had been craving their mash potato since damn long ! hahas. later maybe gng play lan again =x ooops. bt dunno where.. hopefully novena bahs ^^

craving forrrrrr darkkk chocolates ^^

wah damn sot T.T yes went to play lan wid clement & brendon & baby ^^ wahlao cabbed to novena, lan close = =" thn cabbed to somerset, lag like shit T.T so cabbed to cyrus, no coms = =" thn cabbed all the way to serangoon gardens o.0 still abit lag, butttt lazy to cab le.. plus bo lui o.0 playyed one round dota wit baby qian randy & tim. suck man, really T.T keep dying & dying & dying plus idk wht to buy T.T haih sot...

anywayyy. i leveled up yest ! but my 2x exp use finish le >:( haih. one good thing bout srng grdns is that got internet cafe = more exp ! ^^ haih haih. played till i think 9? thn bused to tpy for breakfast ^^ thn went to bren's house. buay tahan, me & clement slpt like pigs =x hahahas ! woke up at 12 plus & rushed to change all tht, thn west cc for bball with cs ^^

baby's brothers came & it rain T.T played like shit, but quite fun bahs ^^ hahas. sian arhs. baby bathing now. wanna slpslpslpslpslp T.T >:(

HAPPY 13th MONTHSARY BABY <3 you are still my one & onli ^^ <3

long over dued pictures. let the unglamness begins o.0

lyk clem said. our xmas was spent playg lan & SLEEPING o.0 HAHAS ! but i had fun yest ! bbq over at my house & almost every cousin came except for pam T.T hahas ! abit sian at first bahs. until we started playing cards. & thn gambling ! where i lost like nearly 40 bucks, but mummylove gave me some of her winnings @ ^^ lucky me :D

my heart only beats for you ^^

ps. MISSING LYDIA LEE LOTS ! hope you are having fun ^^

yest went to 313 to shop with mummylove&kor^^ only bought ONE pathetic dress >:( haih... anwyayys i didnt slp >:( was msgging jasmine <3 ^^ tidied abit & left home at 4.49am & began to work to pasir ris. walk wrong route AGAIN = =" took like 80 mins to reach whitesands? met up wid heidy ^^

went to pasir ris park tgt to slack abit. smoked like a smoke machine o.0 zzz. haih >:( &thn we left for braddell to meet up with lydia !! <3 wah super sot sbs T.T ccb take one stupid bus ride need 2.80? WTFCK la. seriously, damn spoil mood. sot rabat o.0

haih. anyway, aat baby's now. his mouth damn chou T.T they all say the dress quite nice. yay !! hahas. gng to meet qinlei soon ^^ wanna play Nurien REAL BADLY ! if onli i know how to dl when everything is in korean o.0 haih.

tardtardtard. the world's full of tards o.0

i was so bored, i went to count how many days we had been tgt. 389 days baby ! its been 389 days ! when we were both just playing with each other in the start. rmb how everyone used to disapprove us being tgt? the time you said you & i are still tgt cause you wanna prove someone wrong, not bcause you love me. rmb that? &i wasnt a teeny bit sad, cause i wasnt in love with you at all. in fact, you were always msging/gng out with other girls, and me, i was msging & gng out wif guys too. i nv thought we would ever be seriously in love. who knew baby. who knew.

who knew that today. we would be inseperable. ^^ who knew that today, people would be jealous of our love. a love that i thought i was impossible.. &now im confident that it would last, probably forever. no, definitely forever ^^

i love you baby ! 281108, rmb? <3

pink cigs ! why singapore dont have ? >:(

yest jj didnt win :( but he is still my xin zong de ou xiang ! ^^ hahas. the thing was supposed to start at 4.30? but delayed until idk 6plus? o.0 haih. but we had fun playing their games & getting prizes ! want to get a top from new look ! gotta beg mummy to get it for me cause currently im BROKE till the end of the month >:(

heidy came over & we trained back tgt ! thanks to baby, both my slippers spoil liao T.T haih oso dunno wht to wear out anymore T.T rahs. dont understand why im getting lighter, but fatter? o.0 haih. just got to know tht for private candidates our results will be out before feb, which means might be later than the rest of the cohort T.T stillll...cant wait to get my "fabolous" results =x hahas !

staying home today cause im dead tired + cramps !! T.T wants to go swimming BADLY! maybe later when theres no sun ^^ missing my baby lots now! ^^ cant wait to see you tmr :D

l1r4 8 please. or else i really dunno wht to do le ><><

at novena lan with baby & clement now ^^ hahas. a few days back went to watched bodyguards&assassin wid baby, dalei, clement, kk bro & wing ^^ highly recommended ! would have been damn touching if baby & clement werent laughing half the time T.T movie ended at 930 i think? & we had to rush like siao back to baby's = ="

have been away from home for 3 days? i think its my routine now.. 6 nights spent away from home every week? =x slpt over at clement's yest. dvd marathon o.0 baby was so engrossed when watching spread = =" zzz. totally r21 show = =" hahas ! & thn woke up played wii ^^ the boys cooked damn alot and FORCED me to eat luh = =" dots. at last everyone cannot finish their food = =" haih. greedy pigs, cook so much =x after tht heidy & her friend came ^^ played wii again o.0 HAHAS! went back to baby's and now im at lan ! clement is slping like a pig now o.0 chionged audi until headache o.0 finally lvl le ^^ :D:D

cant wait for xmas, idk why^^ gng to suntec tmr ^^ asiasoft ^^ support jj ~~ hopefully he can win for beatup ^^

im left with my last 50$ till the end of the month >:( & i think im gng to spend at least half of it on lan. here for 7 hours le T.T = 10$ >:( haih

all i want for xmas is to be skinny

My Two Favourite Boys <3

spent 4 nights away from home? cant rmb much..
lan overnight at novena with clement! cycled there & back T.T i had to stand all the way T.T leg fucking numb T.T
swimming with the 3 brothers + lewis, chyekeong, hacken, siying & jingwen at my house.
bishan for new moon ^^
clement's house ( 711 ? ) & thn bishan again to fix his phone. his house have like 8 cartons of packet milo, 5 big bottle of ribena syrup, dunno how many packets of seaweed chicken/cup noodles/ chips o.0 LOLS !

cramps rabat >:( haih. i hate periods ! T.T

everyone is sick now >:( haih. takecares & get well soon all !

currently at novenaa lan waiting for baby to come <3 ^^ and thn gng to chiong audi again le :D:D HAHAS! yest baby came to my house for dinner :D:D:D ^^ he is like damn pig la. eat so much = =" like own my whole family = =" take rice alr, my mum give him some from her plate. thn after tht i cnt finish oso give him some. when in the first place his rice damn alot alr? thn aft tht he go home still eat supper = =" okays win le lohs .... =x

rahhh. hopefully can lvl up :D cant wait ! job-hunting tmr~ wif baby & dardardy. wish us luck :D:D <3

last night met up with heidy. hahs. i realise her direction sense really cmi =x hahas. kaki bukit prison school tell me changi prison ! o.0 LOLS ! anyways went to white sands to slack & stuff ^^ & thn she left without taking her cig o.0 LOLS ! bu zhi direction sense cmi, memory oso? =x hahas !

wah damn fucking pisssed T.T i woke up early, went all the way to work, do most of the shifting work, & THEN IM TOLD TO GO HOME?! wtfck la. was fucking pissed. you can ask heidy.. hahas. thnx fr hearing me rant =x ^^ <3>:(

so went to novena lan :D met up widd baby & bryan again. play until not sot le. left 2 percent, which is like one game, thn can lvl up le. thn kena disconnected. cause audi got patch T.T dots. sot again T.T haih. play petsville half way hang >:( T.T T.T im an angry girl today rahhh.. 330 can play audi again le. 1 more hour + to go. haih . i guess im already an audi tard loh, nott in the process of becoming one =x ooops !

wanna quit this fucked up job T.T & look for something betterrrr.... >< baby, quick finish cso ? o.0

I think it happens to everyone when they grow up, you find out who you are & what you want. & thn you realize tht people you've know forever dont see things the way you do. & so you keep the wonderful meories, but find yourself moving on. its perfectly normal.

currently evolving into an audition tard. met up with heidy yest morning. slacked smoked walked talked & thn i went to novena while she went to work at town. met up with baby & bryan, & we played lan ! wintermaul & we completed it, yay ! hahas. after tht they played dota while i auditioned. lvl up twice to lvl 7 le :D hahas. but realise my cc4 still cannot make it. wtfck everyone is like using chance 6 alr o.0 dots. lucky my beatup still considered okay ;D train until most songs can 0 miss, thn i start to train cc4 le bahs ^^ i think im the slowest person to start audition T.T year 2009 gng end le thn start? dots - -"

went to baby's house to stay. watched zombieland on com. fucking lame dots. luckily not watch in cinema, confirm kpkb. talking about kpkb, some noob dog kp me on audi = =" jitao lose to me still say i nub? LOLS. xiasueyyy ~ zzz. recently alot of people/things turn me off. o.0 the world is changing? or am i changing? o.0

woked up today & i had no voice T.T my throat was practically BURNING la, not exaggerating. lucky no phlegm ( yet ? ) , i hate phlegms o.0 so tempted to go novena play lan wid baby again, butttt.. self control, dont wanna waste $$$ bahs.. aim : lvl 10 & i will buy acash to buy nicer clothes for my character :D ^^

currently missing audi o.0 baby. stead. dardardy. kk bro. & the big nose didi =x hahas. all meet up soon okies .. ^^ gonna go look for recipes online now. wanna bake for xmas ! byes all ^^

xmm ahlians turn me off T.T dots

anywayyys im watching zhong ji san guo now :D finally ate the new black pepper chicken at KFC today :D yumsyums !

to my baobei stead Lydia Lee Butterfly ( Hu Die =x ) :
HAPPY 17th Birthday babe ! one more year and we will all be legal, yay ! its sad tht we haven been meeting much recently. hope you enjoy your bday this year. be happy always okay ! dont drink too much hors !! though we are not as close anymore, sisters are forever ! i love you <3 dont sian sian le, okies ? you always have me ! ^^ let this be the limit, and not drift anymore okays, instead lets try to be closer again. though i knw quite difficult, buttttt... its possible ! love you lots stead <3

song arh. lan @ grandlink frm 12+mn to 1+pm ! hahas audi, cs, warcraft :D ^^

i cant explain how i feel. funny how sometimes i actually fear you.. will it become worse? only time will tell

sometimes i wonder why people get into affairs. like why would you do something to hurt someone who loves you so much / someone you loves ( or even loveD if that matters ). is that moment of happiness (?) worth risking losing someone so important to you? it really hurts me to see some of you getting into love triangles. some really close friends, some are just normal hi-bye friends, but still, i feel for you all.. all in all, i just want every single one of you to be happy. but will this happiness last long?

some people have affairs for sex. some just needs someone by his/her side. some crazes for love. some just wants to be happy. some, just get into affairs accidentally, gradually, with no previous intention into getting into one.. or maybe, one just doesnt know how to get out of one.

maybe some find it difficult to reject someone cause he/she doesnt want to lose a friend. so many different reasons, but what do one have to gain? temporary pleasure/happiness/love. im not assuming, its just that i really cannot understand.. how can one feel happy when you are always hanging onto something which may just disappear some day. how can one be happy when you need someone who doesnt need you ( maybe ? )

relationships are complicated enough w/o affairs, no ?

disclaimer : this if just what i feel. random, i know. doesnt mean that im against anyone / pinpointing anyone, okays? if ive insulted anyone, really sorry !

This is the Very fat Kyushi

The very cute brothers shot with brig's sexy butt & ql's thick armpit hair :D

this is brig very happy that his tummy is smaller than the tyre =/

this is proof that ql is GIAN PENG =x

zz still gian peng..

this is brig trying to defy gravity o.0

acting like a mafia in a hot spring ?

small eyes small nipples o.0

ql gng to tiao hai o.0

brig killg ql ?

another brother shot :D:D

sexy post man, SEXY post

kua tio gui arh !

its now about 9 . went to work today , and then home to slp ! cause later im gng grandlink to chiong audition ! lvl 3 onli leh, how noob o.0 once i reach lvl 15 im gng to buy acash & nice clothes, yay! do miss me :D:D

2 nights ago
quarrelled with my mum over a stupid remote control. dots. no matter how much time i spend at home, nothing changes. you still dont understand me. so whats the point of gng home? anyways cabbed to find baby. one thing i like about my new house, cab fare to tpy is cheaper! Hahas. quarrelled with baby again :( over some stupid nerd guys >:( kena scratched :( haih :( baby just rmb that i love you okays! <3

yesterday
met Qinlei in the morning. Ate Kfc breakfast together ^^ Hahas. thn bus 5 to my house together. gymmed & thn swam ^^ quite happy bah. my breath still quite long. hehes. will upload pics soon. hehes. Qinlei have chest okay! errrr.. hahas. bathed, thn went to Elias lan. zzz. sucks la. jitao audition maple all coms either cannot open or else haven patch? dots.
cabbed to grandlink. played audi with the pro jj while the two maple tards played maple =x hahas. got improve le bah, but still long way to go :(
went to baby house to slp again :D hehes

today
went to work. fucking feel like killing someone. ccb. bloody hell. money lost = me? fuck your mum man seriously. is like before you confirm its not at home you say one set of things. after you confirm that you cannot find the money, you try to push the blame to me? just cause or else you have to pay the fucking money la. ccb.
okay sidetrack. dont wanna talk bout things which make my mood back. after work went to town to meet up with heidy ! tgt went to buy the baileys for stead :D:D stead happy early birthday ! its been so long since we met up, gonna spend more time tgt on sunday okays ! miss you lots <3

today, ive learned to tell lies to save oneself. just that... somehow.. i not so cheebye to do that? dont understand how someone like you ( who is like fucking 60 at least ) is still so bei bi wu ci xia liu? seriously... nan guai the world is so fucked up..

Hao Xin Fen Shou - candy

I LOST THE COUPLE RING BABY GAVE ME 3 DAYS AGO >:(

work today was damn sian. i woke up at 5am in the morning cause my stomach was hurting like crazy >:( for the rest of the morning/noon, i visit the toilet every single time i eat. o.0 good way to diet ? NO ~! &&&&& my no-smoking-plan failed cause i bought a pack of viceroy super menthol light today ! butttt till now ive only smoked one stick.. self control baby, self controlll...

suddenly very gian Audtion. dots. created a new acc yest, so lvl 1 & NOOB appearance. but bloody hell i no desktop to play beat-up luhxzxz >:( sian to the MAX i wanna be a beat-up pro de leh T.T damn sian bloody sian fucking sian. just made mash potato for the family! added damn alot of salt, but apparently its still not enough. bloody hell why is all good food so bloody unhealthy T.T cant wait for gyming tmr with the faitties =x :D:D:D gng to eat dinner & gain fats again now ...

ps. sisters i miss yall lots !